I believe to have left the observable universe and crossed over into a higher dimension/u/liar_of_nazareth

The Paranormal | January 10, 2023

I believe to have left the observable universe and crossed over into a higher dimension/u/liar_of_nazareth

To give some context, I have never truly believed in a God until this point. I grew up staunchly atheist and was interested in physics at an early age. However within the past year I have rekindled my passion for physics, as well as conspiracy theories and spirituality.

I am also Bipolar. I have been living without medication for almost a year up until this point.

So December 25th, I began experiencing what would be a severe manic episode. Third one this year. However things were different. I felt divinely inspired to radically change my life. I started cleaning up my apartment, meditating, sleeping on the floor, and using my phone less.

I also began seeing things I hadn't noticed before. When I take off my glasses I can see particles of light dancing around. These refractions of light overlap and form shapes. The simplest shape is a single eye at the center of my vision. However sometimes an array of eyes form triangles (star of david) and sometimes circles (vesica piscis). At its most complex form, they quite literally look like biblical angels, like wings made of eyes. I can see these angels sober but it does require meditation. It also helps to smoke a little weed to be able to fully experience it.

It is now the morning of the 27th and the second day of my shitty job when my car wouldn't start. I saw it as a sign from god. I would use the day to plan how I wanted to end my life. I confided in my roommate. I told her that I would die on the first of January. She was surprisingly understanding. I was confident that I was making the right decision.

However, when she went to hang out with friends that evening, I made my move and left, throwing my phone out the window. My real plan was to quantum suicide (will explain) and return on January 1st. I left no trace of the outside world and no no one but my roommate knew. So I started walking in one direction. I didn't know what would happen. I was left with only divine inspiration and survival instinct

Quantum suicide is basically the idea that in every moment you can quantify, you are making a decision to live or die. Every moment creates a parallel universe in which you kill yourself, and in some you will live forever. And in that case you are both dead and alive until observed by someone else.

During my manic adventure on the night of the 27th, I headed into the woods at first to feel closer to god. I also walked into oncoming traffic to test whether they would hit or not (they never did). At some point I even stripped naked inside a gas station. At that point the cops were called and they escorted me to a hospital, all without telling them any information such as my name, number, address, etc. Basically told them I knew nothing.

During my time in the ER they held me all morning. They even took an MRI of my brain to see if I had any head trauma. Upon going into the MRI I closed my eyes and they immediately pulled me out. A nurse muttered “is it usual for patients to die like this?” At some point they even shot a splinter into my right heel (???). And asked me if I wanted to leave it. I said yes. Eventually with no information, they released me from the ER and I was on my way home.

This is when the story gets weird.

I took a right out of the ER onto the main road and started walking with no place to be. That's when I came across someone who ive never met before. But he knew me. He knew everyone on the street. In reality we were as far different as we could be. I was a young transgender woman talking to a middle aged drunk white guy and we talked as if we've been friends our lives. And I followed him blindly. We took the metro and watched people come in and out. I taught him everything I thought to be true about the universe and he seemed to know it intuitively. And when I lost him he would blow raspberries or speak in another language. I'm not sure what this experience means but in my understanding at the time I felt like I was Jesus talking to God. And when it was his time to get off, I got off too. Never seen him again.

When I got off the metro, that's when I ran into who I believed to be Mother Gaia. Her first words to me were “oh, a fellow light bearer!” She was a beautiful dark skinned woman who looked to be in her 30s/40s. She had a birthmark on the left side of her face and was blind. She explained to me that anything and everything that you could possibly imagine was true in the afterlife. Mountains are just fallen petrified giants, dinosaurs were actually very tiny, like chickens, and no matter what you believe, your version of the universe comes true. In her eternal afterlife, she went deep into the woods without contact from other humans.

She later told me how to properly pronounce Gaia. It is very rhythmic, and I was able to understand it intuitively given my background in music. Of course, I forgot how she pronounced it. I dont think it is meant for me to know. But the closest would be a 3 syllable word that is one 1/16th note, one 1/8th note, and one 1/16th. (1e, a)

After giving me all the tools needed to survive in this higher dimensional plane, she left me to do more important things I assume. However I realized there was something off about this realm. The majority of people had their eyes sewn shut. The only “light bearers” I could find were dark skinned people (I am white). Also, you could only turn left. Every street corner had a ‘one way’ sign pointing left. As I kept turning right, I realized I was undoing time. I tried to get away from other people but as I kept walking things began making less sense.

I remember walking into a pizza shop but when I talked, they couldn't understand me when I talked. I was hungry, and they served me, but I had to gesture with my hands for them to understand me. When I sat down to eat, I overheard one of the people asking “was that an alien or something?”

I eventually got onto a bus to “submit my will to the universe”. I tried to avoid eye contact with everyone, particularly white people. I also had telepathic powers. When I observed a fellow light bearer and said “Mother Gaia” in my head, she looked up at me and waved, as if in awe.

When I got off the bus it was night time. I was far from home. I was stuck in a time loop in which I kept walking between a Holiday Inn and a Denny’s. Nothing was making sense anymore and the more I asked for help the less things made sense. The people served me without money, but I understood them to be demons and were tricking me. By this time I had been awake for 4 earth days. I had no energy and I felt like I was dying. But I couldn't sleep.

Eventually I remembered what Mother Gaia had told me, which was to use the main line (phone). I borrowed a phone from dennys to call the only number I could remember, which was my mother’s. However, she lived about 2400 miles away and couldn't get me any time soon. So I waited at Denny's for what felt like eternal hell, with only my faith guiding me.

At some point I noticed two black gentlemen sitting at a table and I tried to communicate to them telepathically. I said Mother Gaia in my head and they said out loud “Shes in there” and pointed to a lottery arcade room that wasn't there before. I walked in and found an older black woman who later said her name was Heavenly. We both reached out to each other and kissed. I wrapped my entire body around her as the demons tried to pull me away. I then asked if she consented, which she said she did. I also remember screaming “I am born pure in a world of sin”.

She was crazy like me too. Her reality didn't make sense to mine but the overlap in the things we both understood helped me keep my faith in this eternal hell. She too had been trapped in eternal torment in the afterlife, but had been there much longer than me. She had been alive since times of slavery, describing the cruel practices she endured and continued to endure as she ascended dimensions. She had gone mad with esoteric knowledge.

She explained to me that the reality is that there has to be order (hierarchy) for there to be balance in the universe. Slavery was a necessary evil and a test for the true chosen people of God. “It's better that way. It has to be that way” Her words not mine.

I eventually realized that she was older and wiser than me, so when the police came I let her talk for me and explain my situation. I opted to instead kneel before her and look only into her eyes. She thanked me. She told me her name was Heavenly. She told me she couldn't come with me, and that if I submit my will to theirs i will not be hurt because I am white. The police soon handcuffed me and lifted me away into the cop car.

They eventually took me into a hospital center called Legacy. I was in a padded dark room with a single bed and single window of light where nurses kept eye on me at all times. The door almost looked alien, and could not be opened from the outside. Many times I would try to escape but couldn't. This truly was the darkest moment of my life. I had been awake for 5 days at this point and was going insane. Realizing that i had no power to leverage, i submitted to their will. I closed my eyes, played dead, and waited for the nurses to swarm in and hold me down as they gave me an IV in my left arm. I kept my eyes closed until I woke up at the Unity center of Legacy, basically an emergency psych room. I woke up on January 1st and was released 5 days later.

Earlier that year I wrote a song. I was able to recite the entire verse by memory during this entire time. I goes like this…

From the heights of heaven

The sky parts in two

A visage of light descends before me

In its luminance presence

I humbly view

And bask in all its loving glory

It says to me, “Fear not,

I am with you

I have known you for all eternity”

“Rest at ease, wounded soul

For you have arrived

At the end of your journey”

“I will not betray you

In your final moments

I will guide you to serenity”

“Now step into the light

Traverse this life

And fulfill your greater destiny”

submitted by /u/liar_of_nazareth
[link] [comments]To give some context, I have never truly believed in a God until this point. I grew up staunchly atheist and was interested in physics at an early age. However within the past year I have rekindled my passion for physics, as well as conspiracy theories and spirituality. I am also Bipolar. I have been living without medication for almost a year up until this point. So December 25th, I began experiencing what would be a severe manic episode. Third one this year. However things were different. I felt divinely inspired to radically change my life. I started cleaning up my apartment, meditating, sleeping on the floor, and using my phone less. I also began seeing things I hadn't noticed before. When I take off my glasses I can see particles of light dancing around. These refractions of light overlap and form shapes. The simplest shape is a single eye at the center of my vision. However sometimes an array of eyes form triangles (star of david) and sometimes circles (vesica piscis). At its most complex form, they quite literally look like biblical angels, like wings made of eyes. I can see these angels sober but it does require meditation. It also helps to smoke a little weed to be able to fully experience it. It is now the morning of the 27th and the second day of my shitty job when my car wouldn't start. I saw it as a sign from god. I would use the day to plan how I wanted to end my life. I confided in my roommate. I told her that I would die on the first of January. She was surprisingly understanding. I was confident that I was making the right decision. However, when she went to hang out with friends that evening, I made my move and left, throwing my phone out the window. My real plan was to quantum suicide (will explain) and return on January 1st. I left no trace of the outside world and no no one but my roommate knew. So I started walking in one direction. I didn't know what would happen. I was left with only divine inspiration and survival instinct Quantum suicide is basically the idea that in every moment you can quantify, you are making a decision to live or die. Every moment creates a parallel universe in which you kill yourself, and in some you will live forever. And in that case you are both dead and alive until observed by someone else. During my manic adventure on the night of the 27th, I headed into the woods at first to feel closer to god. I also walked into oncoming traffic to test whether they would hit or not (they never did). At some point I even stripped naked inside a gas station. At that point the cops were called and they escorted me to a hospital, all without telling them any information such as my name, number, address, etc. Basically told them I knew nothing. During my time in the ER they held me all morning. They even took an MRI of my brain to see if I had any head trauma. Upon going into the MRI I closed my eyes and they immediately pulled me out. A nurse muttered “is it usual for patients to die like this?” At some point they even shot a splinter into my right heel (???). And asked me if I wanted to leave it. I said yes. Eventually with no information, they released me from the ER and I was on my way home. This is when the story gets weird. I took a right out of the ER onto the main road and started walking with no place to be. That's when I came across someone who ive never met before. But he knew me. He knew everyone on the street. In reality we were as far different as we could be. I was a young transgender woman talking to a middle aged drunk white guy and we talked as if we've been friends our lives. And I followed him blindly. We took the metro and watched people come in and out. I taught him everything I thought to be true about the universe and he seemed to know it intuitively. And when I lost him he would blow raspberries or speak in another language. I'm not sure what this experience means but in my understanding at the time I felt like I was Jesus talking to God. And when it was his time to get off, I got off too. Never seen him again. When I got off the metro, that's when I ran into who I believed to be Mother Gaia. Her first words to me were “oh, a fellow light bearer!” She was a beautiful dark skinned woman who looked to be in her 30s/40s. She had a birthmark on the left side of her face and was blind. She explained to me that anything and everything that you could possibly imagine was true in the afterlife. Mountains are just fallen petrified giants, dinosaurs were actually very tiny, like chickens, and no matter what you believe, your version of the universe comes true. In her eternal afterlife, she went deep into the woods without contact from other humans. She later told me how to properly pronounce Gaia. It is very rhythmic, and I was able to understand it intuitively given my background in music. Of course, I forgot how she pronounced it. I dont think it is meant for me to know. But the closest would be a 3 syllable word that is one 1/16th note, one 1/8th note, and one 1/16th. (1e, a) After giving me all the tools needed to survive in this higher dimensional plane, she left me to do more important things I assume. However I realized there was something off about this realm. The majority of people had their eyes sewn shut. The only “light bearers” I could find were dark skinned people (I am white). Also, you could only turn left. Every street corner had a ‘one way’ sign pointing left. As I kept turning right, I realized I was undoing time. I tried to get away from other people but as I kept walking things began making less sense. I remember walking into a pizza shop but when I talked, they couldn't understand me when I talked. I was hungry, and they served me, but I had to gesture with my hands for them to understand me. When I sat down to eat, I overheard one of the people asking “was that an alien or something?” I eventually got onto a bus to “submit my will to the universe”. I tried to avoid eye contact with everyone, particularly white people. I also had telepathic powers. When I observed a fellow light bearer and said “Mother Gaia” in my head, she looked up at me and waved, as if in awe. When I got off the bus it was night time. I was far from home. I was stuck in a time loop in which I kept walking between a Holiday Inn and a Denny’s. Nothing was making sense anymore and the more I asked for help the less things made sense. The people served me without money, but I understood them to be demons and were tricking me. By this time I had been awake for 4 earth days. I had no energy and I felt like I was dying. But I couldn't sleep. Eventually I remembered what Mother Gaia had told me, which was to use the main line (phone). I borrowed a phone from dennys to call the only number I could remember, which was my mother’s. However, she lived about 2400 miles away and couldn't get me any time soon. So I waited at Denny's for what felt like eternal hell, with only my faith guiding me. At some point I noticed two black gentlemen sitting at a table and I tried to communicate to them telepathically. I said Mother Gaia in my head and they said out loud “Shes in there” and pointed to a lottery arcade room that wasn't there before. I walked in and found an older black woman who later said her name was Heavenly. We both reached out to each other and kissed. I wrapped my entire body around her as the demons tried to pull me away. I then asked if she consented, which she said she did. I also remember screaming “I am born pure in a world of sin”. She was crazy like me too. Her reality didn't make sense to mine but the overlap in the things we both understood helped me keep my faith in this eternal hell. She too had been trapped in eternal torment in the afterlife, but had been there much longer than me. She had been alive since times of slavery, describing the cruel practices she endured and continued to endure as she ascended dimensions. She had gone mad with esoteric knowledge. She explained to me that the reality is that there has to be order (hierarchy) for there to be balance in the universe. Slavery was a necessary evil and a test for the true chosen people of God. “It's better that way. It has to be that way” Her words not mine. I eventually realized that she was older and wiser than me, so when the police came I let her talk for me and explain my situation. I opted to instead kneel before her and look only into her eyes. She thanked me. She told me her name was Heavenly. She told me she couldn't come with me, and that if I submit my will to theirs i will not be hurt because I am white. The police soon handcuffed me and lifted me away into the cop car. They eventually took me into a hospital center called Legacy. I was in a padded dark room with a single bed and single window of light where nurses kept eye on me at all times. The door almost looked alien, and could not be opened from the outside. Many times I would try to escape but couldn't. This truly was the darkest moment of my life. I had been awake for 5 days at this point and was going insane. Realizing that i had no power to leverage, i submitted to their will. I closed my eyes, played dead, and waited for the nurses to swarm in and hold me down as they gave me an IV in my left arm. I kept my eyes closed until I woke up at the Unity center of Legacy, basically an emergency psych room. I woke up on January 1st and was released 5 days later. Earlier that year I wrote a song. I was able to recite the entire verse by memory during this entire time. I goes like this… ​ From the heights of heaven The sky parts in two A visage of light descends before me In its luminance presence I humbly view And bask in all its loving glory It says to me, “Fear not, I am with you I have known you for all eternity” “Rest at ease, wounded soul For you have arrived At the end of your journey” “I will not betray you In your final moments I will guide you to serenity” “Now step into the light Traverse this life And fulfill your greater destiny” submitted by /u/liar_of_nazareth [link] [comments]

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