I don't know where to ask this question, and I couldn't find anything related on the internet, so I'll just ask this here (thank god it's anonymous anyway); sometimes when I take mdma or smoke marijuana, it's like I get possessed by something, I start talking about myself in third person, and it feels like it's not me, after i sober up, i remember some of the things I said, but some not. I remember saying something like: "I don't want to be here, I don't want to keep hurting her and destroying her life, but I can't stop because that's my job".
One time I started shaking uncontrollably, my boyfriend tried to calm me down but I just couldn't stop. It's like I couldn't control my body and I couldn't say anything, even when I tried to, which never happened to me. I am always able to control myself when I'm high. It was like a blur, but I remember my boyfriend playing some kind of frequency (he knows about spirituality etc.) and it hurt like hell. I started rolling on the floor, screaming in pain and begging him to stop. After that I calmed down and started crying like a child. It was a horrible experience. This personality switch happened around 5 times, and it was scary each time because it felt like I'm sharing my body with someone else and I don't like it. To be fair, ever since I was a kid, I always felt like there was something or someone telling me to ruin my life and make the worst decisions. I'm just wondering, could it maybe be some kind of disorder or could it be something else?
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[link] [comments]I don't know where to ask this question, and I couldn't find anything related on the internet, so I'll just ask this here (thank god it's anonymous anyway); sometimes when I take mdma or smoke marijuana, it's like I get possessed by something, I start talking about myself in third person, and it feels like it's not me, after i sober up, i remember some of the things I said, but some not. I remember saying something like: "I don't want to be here, I don't want to keep hurting her and destroying her life, but I can't stop because that's my job". One time I started shaking uncontrollably, my boyfriend tried to calm me down but I just couldn't stop. It's like I couldn't control my body and I couldn't say anything, even when I tried to, which never happened to me. I am always able to control myself when I'm high. It was like a blur, but I remember my boyfriend playing some kind of frequency (he knows about spirituality etc.) and it hurt like hell. I started rolling on the floor, screaming in pain and begging him to stop. After that I calmed down and started crying like a child. It was a horrible experience. This personality switch happened around 5 times, and it was scary each time because it felt like I'm sharing my body with someone else and I don't like it. To be fair, ever since I was a kid, I always felt like there was something or someone telling me to ruin my life and make the worst decisions. I'm just wondering, could it maybe be some kind of disorder or could it be something else? submitted by /u/Prestigious-Rise-380 [link] [comments]
