One day I woke up and I didn’t recognize my life. One day very recently it was like something inside of me and all around me shifted and I was no longer myself. I felt like I had been left behind or dumped into another reality that was unrecognizable. Each day I wake up in this new strange reality, something small switches again for the worse and every time that happens my brain feels like it’s being scrambled up and fried. My core group is almost always the same, it’s just darker, scarier. I’ve been getting awful migraines and they keep getting worse and my back is always in excruciating pain at the base of my neck and in between my shoulder blades. I keep seeing all of these different paths all converging at once. My dreams used to be safe when/where I am now, but as of late they’ve become infected. I was asleep and I had a wake sleep dream where a tall shadow figure was opening my door chanting something straight out of a horror film. I woke up to my partner shaking me and as I heard the door slam, my middle finger was in the air and I was screaming and cursing it out but I felt like I was awake. I feel like I’m being studied or tortured or God knows what. It’s just becoming so overwhelming that I’m afraid to make any decisions or move on from where I’m at in my life, because I’m afraid I’ll blink out again. I’m afraid to talk about it lest someone will think I’m Cookoo Bananas. God even saying it out loud makes me feel crazy. I keep asking myself, could I be losing my mind? Something broke in me today and I just had to share this to free myself. Idk what any of this means and I feel like I do all at the same time. Deep down I feel like I’m not supposed to be here, it’s a sickening sinking feeling in my gut like something is really wrong here.
-Alice
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[link] [comments]One day I woke up and I didn’t recognize my life. One day very recently it was like something inside of me and all around me shifted and I was no longer myself. I felt like I had been left behind or dumped into another reality that was unrecognizable. Each day I wake up in this new strange reality, something small switches again for the worse and every time that happens my brain feels like it’s being scrambled up and fried. My core group is almost always the same, it’s just darker, scarier. I’ve been getting awful migraines and they keep getting worse and my back is always in excruciating pain at the base of my neck and in between my shoulder blades. I keep seeing all of these different paths all converging at once. My dreams used to be safe when/where I am now, but as of late they’ve become infected. I was asleep and I had a wake sleep dream where a tall shadow figure was opening my door chanting something straight out of a horror film. I woke up to my partner shaking me and as I heard the door slam, my middle finger was in the air and I was screaming and cursing it out but I felt like I was awake. I feel like I’m being studied or tortured or God knows what. It’s just becoming so overwhelming that I’m afraid to make any decisions or move on from where I’m at in my life, because I’m afraid I’ll blink out again. I’m afraid to talk about it lest someone will think I’m Cookoo Bananas. God even saying it out loud makes me feel crazy. I keep asking myself, could I be losing my mind? Something broke in me today and I just had to share this to free myself. Idk what any of this means and I feel like I do all at the same time. Deep down I feel like I’m not supposed to be here, it’s a sickening sinking feeling in my gut like something is really wrong here. -Alice submitted by /u/Wrong-Timeline [link] [comments]
