I want to preface by saying that I do not fully believe in ghosts. In fact, I have been trying to avoid any conversation about ghosts or anything supernatural simply because there is no solid evidence to support them. I personally have so experiences with the unknowns as a kid but I don’t think they are relevant to what I am going through now. But anyway, here is my story.
Up until the covid pandemic started in February 2020, I was studying in a high school and lived in its dormitory. The dormitory itself is quite old; it was built before before the WW1 so at least it’s 100 years old. But the problem I had with the dorm was not the fact that it’s old and dusty. It’s the atmosphere of the whole building and the people living in it. I do not like to use this word but there were definitely negative energies coming from them. One student even committed suicide in a bathroom. But no one cared. That was the kind of environment I was exposed to for way too long. I lived there for nearly 4 years and never felt comfortable. I always longed for summer and winter vacation so that I could go back to my home.
On January 16th 2020, I had a so called panic attack for the first time. Not sure what triggered it but I suspect it’s the stress I had been going through just by living there. I was in my room at the dorm and immediately rushed to the nursing center at school. They just told me to just drink water and lay down. They thought it’d go away. But it didn’t. The next day they took me to the ER and I took my piss/blood test to make sure I was not on drugs but nothing abnormal was detected. They just told me that I’m stressed and that I should take care of my health.
Around this time, I started to have intense heavy headache and tinnitus 24/7. I completely lost appetite too. I’ve become insomniac as well. Moreover, my hands get extremely cold all the time. I thought I was going crazy. I could see things through my eyes but everything seemed so distant. These symptoms especially got worse at night. I actually became afraid of night because of it. I also stated to have nightmares where I was dragged from my legs by a woman with so many bruises and cuts. I am trying to describe what I have been going through but when I put them in words they don’t really cover it. It’s not like normal pain when you get with flu or cold. There’s no word to describe them.
As soon as the winter vacation began, my parents took me to some good neurologists. Because I thought I might have brain injury or something. They took blood tests, MRIs, X-rays but the results came back NORMAL. I have been prescribed so many kinds of pain killers but none of them have worked. I was so devastated and I became depressed from the pain that I have been constantly going through. But from the western medical point of view I am healthy as fuck at least on paper. I am still seeing doctors regularly but they just gave up on me. It’s honestly sad.
Fast Forward, it’s been 2 years since I had the first sign of my symptoms and pretty much everything remained the same. Not even a single improvement whatsoever. My parents are super worried about me and they have pretty much did everything they can to help me. But all the doctors I have seen just told me that I am just stressed. I even tried TMS and Emgality but they didn’t work at all. I was just so disappointed that I would rather die than live with this much pain.
About a week ago, my mum made a confession that she had similar experience when she was exactly my age. My mum is Japanese and she grew up in Iwate, Japan. She lost her mum when she was 17 and she started to show the symptoms that I have been having the past two years. Her family thought she went insane from the death of her mum. But when her uncle saw her at my grandma’s funeral, he was shocked by how my mum was being possessed by demonic spirits. She said her uncle was the only one that could understand what she was going through at the time. He took my mum and my grandad to a Shingon Buddhism temple few days after the funeral. (There are different sects of Buddhism in Japan and only some perform exorcisms. And they can only be preformed by a few trained monks. ) There the monk immediately recognized what was wrong with her and he performed exorcism ritual. She told me she does not remember much on what he did as she could not comprehend what was going on, but the monk tapped back of her neck or something. She immediately got better after the ritual. The monk told her that she is sensitive to those entities by nature. He even told her to practice and study exorcism at the temple after finishing high school because she is closer to those entities than many people. But my mum was so afraid of those things that cannot be explained that she refused the offer. She told him that she wants to go to college and have a normal life.
I told her why she did not tell me her experience much earlier. She told me she was hesitant because she knew that I do not like talking about those stuffs and that I only want to rely on western medicine.
Anyway, I bought her experience despise the fact that I do not really want to believe it. Thankfully her uncle is still alive at the age of 80. We contacted him a few days ago and he said I should get the ritual done as soon as I can. He also told me that sensitivity to ghosts or spirits is hereditary. And that people like me and my mum are more prone to directly get affected by them. She told him what I am going through and he is convinced that I have caught some demonic spirits inside me. I’m going to meet him later this month.
Long story short, I am going to the temple in Northern Japan to get exorcism ritual (お祓い) later this month. I am probably going to make an update after the ritual.
Anyone have experience with those legit exorcism rituals? Especially in Japan? Or do you have any similar stories?
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[link] [comments]I want to preface by saying that I do not fully believe in ghosts. In fact, I have been trying to avoid any conversation about ghosts or anything supernatural simply because there is no solid evidence to support them. I personally have so experiences with the unknowns as a kid but I don’t think they are relevant to what I am going through now. But anyway, here is my story. Up until the covid pandemic started in February 2020, I was studying in a high school and lived in its dormitory. The dormitory itself is quite old; it was built before before the WW1 so at least it’s 100 years old. But the problem I had with the dorm was not the fact that it’s old and dusty. It’s the atmosphere of the whole building and the people living in it. I do not like to use this word but there were definitely negative energies coming from them. One student even committed suicide in a bathroom. But no one cared. That was the kind of environment I was exposed to for way too long. I lived there for nearly 4 years and never felt comfortable. I always longed for summer and winter vacation so that I could go back to my home. On January 16th 2020, I had a so called panic attack for the first time. Not sure what triggered it but I suspect it’s the stress I had been going through just by living there. I was in my room at the dorm and immediately rushed to the nursing center at school. They just told me to just drink water and lay down. They thought it’d go away. But it didn’t. The next day they took me to the ER and I took my piss/blood test to make sure I was not on drugs but nothing abnormal was detected. They just told me that I’m stressed and that I should take care of my health. Around this time, I started to have intense heavy headache and tinnitus 24/7. I completely lost appetite too. I’ve become insomniac as well. Moreover, my hands get extremely cold all the time. I thought I was going crazy. I could see things through my eyes but everything seemed so distant. These symptoms especially got worse at night. I actually became afraid of night because of it. I also stated to have nightmares where I was dragged from my legs by a woman with so many bruises and cuts. I am trying to describe what I have been going through but when I put them in words they don’t really cover it. It’s not like normal pain when you get with flu or cold. There’s no word to describe them. As soon as the winter vacation began, my parents took me to some good neurologists. Because I thought I might have brain injury or something. They took blood tests, MRIs, X-rays but the results came back NORMAL. I have been prescribed so many kinds of pain killers but none of them have worked. I was so devastated and I became depressed from the pain that I have been constantly going through. But from the western medical point of view I am healthy as fuck at least on paper. I am still seeing doctors regularly but they just gave up on me. It’s honestly sad. Fast Forward, it’s been 2 years since I had the first sign of my symptoms and pretty much everything remained the same. Not even a single improvement whatsoever. My parents are super worried about me and they have pretty much did everything they can to help me. But all the doctors I have seen just told me that I am just stressed. I even tried TMS and Emgality but they didn’t work at all. I was just so disappointed that I would rather die than live with this much pain. About a week ago, my mum made a confession that she had similar experience when she was exactly my age. My mum is Japanese and she grew up in Iwate, Japan. She lost her mum when she was 17 and she started to show the symptoms that I have been having the past two years. Her family thought she went insane from the death of her mum. But when her uncle saw her at my grandma’s funeral, he was shocked by how my mum was being possessed by demonic spirits. She said her uncle was the only one that could understand what she was going through at the time. He took my mum and my grandad to a Shingon Buddhism temple few days after the funeral. (There are different sects of Buddhism in Japan and only some perform exorcisms. And they can only be preformed by a few trained monks. ) There the monk immediately recognized what was wrong with her and he performed exorcism ritual. She told me she does not remember much on what he did as she could not comprehend what was going on, but the monk tapped back of her neck or something. She immediately got better after the ritual. The monk told her that she is sensitive to those entities by nature. He even told her to practice and study exorcism at the temple after finishing high school because she is closer to those entities than many people. But my mum was so afraid of those things that cannot be explained that she refused the offer. She told him that she wants to go to college and have a normal life. I told her why she did not tell me her experience much earlier. She told me she was hesitant because she knew that I do not like talking about those stuffs and that I only want to rely on western medicine. Anyway, I bought her experience despise the fact that I do not really want to believe it. Thankfully her uncle is still alive at the age of 80. We contacted him a few days ago and he said I should get the ritual done as soon as I can. He also told me that sensitivity to ghosts or spirits is hereditary. And that people like me and my mum are more prone to directly get affected by them. She told him what I am going through and he is convinced that I have caught some demonic spirits inside me. I’m going to meet him later this month. Long story short, I am going to the temple in Northern Japan to get exorcism ritual (お祓い) later this month. I am probably going to make an update after the ritual. Anyone have experience with those legit exorcism rituals? Especially in Japan? Or do you have any similar stories? submitted by /u/lilypond14 [link] [comments]
